Monday, August 16, 2010

Dear dissertation, I love you....but mostly I hate you.

I have no idea whose idea this was, but I want a refund!  I hate my dissertation and everything it represents.  And in this moment, right now, I would love to take it and burn it.  Someone told me that when you start to hate it is when you're making progress.....but I think they lied.

Everyday I have grand plans of writing two pages (the magic formula according to everyone I've talked to) but I get distracted by facebook, the Real Housewives of every city on earth, and the obsessive checking of my email.  I probably have a disorder, extreme avoidance disorder, or something like that.

I was supposed to write the bulk over the summer to I would be on track to graduate in December and not have to worry about writing once school starts (less than two weeks from now) but instead, I took a group of 30 Texans to Italy - an experience that deserves its own blog - but needless to say there was no time for writing this summer.  So, I decided I'd write when I got home.....not taking into account the fact that I had to move to a new apartment, go visit the fam, and then train two new teachers (with two new books).  Yup, good plan.

So I want a refund.  Today I've spend nearly six hours at the computer and I wrote one paragraph.  And it's not even a good one!  Although I did use the word "juxtapose" and have already quoted the primary text, so I think I deserve a break.  Hence the blog post.